Donna, my heart goes out to you. We lost our Sheltie (Woodstock) a little over a year ago. We had/have no kids so Woodstock was our only "child". Went in for a teeth cleaning and they found a huge tumor on his spleen, had to have surgery, made it through for us to see him and died an hour after we left. Everyone hear at flowerchat was so supportive and kind to us when that happened.
This is the first dog I ever had I experienced his death. The first three weeks afterwards were the hardest. We cried and cried some more and then some more. He was our best little friend and buddy and cuddly crazy pet. We live in our flower shop so Woodstock was here all the time. Customers are still coming in and asking about him and its been just about 14 months ago that he died. But, it doesn't bother me, it just makes me remember all the fun we had with him. We still miss him so much. I know I will get another dog soon, but of course, it's just not the same.
We are watching our friends 17 year old Golden Retreiver (Cuddles) go downhill really fast. Cancerous tumor for the second time on her leg looks ready to explode, is blind and is having seizures.
My heart really does go out to you.