So here's the story...
Lots of stress in Shannon World these days.
I'm entered in a big competition coming up this friday....stress
I'm taking a big crazy hard ass test this Saturday.....stress
I'm dealing with a Mother of the bride from hell at work....stress
Hubby went from working with me at the store to working out of town and gone for days at a time......BIG stress
Hubby and I get in a big giant argument right before he leaves on Sunday..... Shannon crying, big stress
Then I come to Flower chat, my favorite thing to do, and get told that basically I'm a showboating, thread hogging, posting useless dribble (or at least that's the way it came across to me since I was being "called out") and what's worse it was by someone I admired tremendously and it really hurt my feelings. Really, it broke my heart. The tears flowed like the the Mississippi. I couldn't believe it, I still can't believe it. And I felt like I was being attacked with no provocation.
Yes I am sensitive.
So what.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not a blubbering cry baby idiot, who throws a fit when I don't get my way. But when someone you care about says things that has your head spinning, and you're thinking "what the hell did I do to deserve that?" In addition to all the other BS going on.... yeah, sometimes it can be a bit much.
I will be totally honest, Some peoples opinions I care about more than others.
I've been an active (very active) member of this board for a little over a year. And I thought that is what we are suppose to do is "be active".
I've talked with several of you on the phone, and consider many of you Not only mentors but friends.
I'm a passionate person. I feel things deeply. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I probably share way too much. But that's how I am, open, honest, and direct. It's the Spanish woman in me.
Did I over react, yeah maybe. But that's me.
Had I not had/still have all the stress, I may have blown it off, or fought back. But it was just the straw that broke the camels back in an already stress filled day. and quite frankly, I'm sick of fighting. Sick of having to constantly stick up for myself, and for others who are members of FC.
I think that sometimes we forget that there are REAL live people typing these messages/posts. With real live feelings, and real live situations that go beyond our little Flower Chat world.
I want to say thanks to everyone who e-mailed me and also to those who Pm'd me.
And to Ryan. If he closed my account when I asked him to I wouldn't have been able to read all the messages.
Anyway,
Yeah I do get "wordy" but again, that's me.
Don't know if I will be as active as I once was, but if I can ever help anyone, e-mail me or send me a PM.
I just felt I needed to say something since it would be rude not to say anything at all.... since so many sent me nice messages.
peace out.
Lots of stress in Shannon World these days.
I'm entered in a big competition coming up this friday....stress
I'm taking a big crazy hard ass test this Saturday.....stress
I'm dealing with a Mother of the bride from hell at work....stress
Hubby went from working with me at the store to working out of town and gone for days at a time......BIG stress
Hubby and I get in a big giant argument right before he leaves on Sunday..... Shannon crying, big stress
Then I come to Flower chat, my favorite thing to do, and get told that basically I'm a showboating, thread hogging, posting useless dribble (or at least that's the way it came across to me since I was being "called out") and what's worse it was by someone I admired tremendously and it really hurt my feelings. Really, it broke my heart. The tears flowed like the the Mississippi. I couldn't believe it, I still can't believe it. And I felt like I was being attacked with no provocation.
Yes I am sensitive.
So what.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not a blubbering cry baby idiot, who throws a fit when I don't get my way. But when someone you care about says things that has your head spinning, and you're thinking "what the hell did I do to deserve that?" In addition to all the other BS going on.... yeah, sometimes it can be a bit much.
I will be totally honest, Some peoples opinions I care about more than others.
I've been an active (very active) member of this board for a little over a year. And I thought that is what we are suppose to do is "be active".
I've talked with several of you on the phone, and consider many of you Not only mentors but friends.
I'm a passionate person. I feel things deeply. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I probably share way too much. But that's how I am, open, honest, and direct. It's the Spanish woman in me.
Did I over react, yeah maybe. But that's me.
Had I not had/still have all the stress, I may have blown it off, or fought back. But it was just the straw that broke the camels back in an already stress filled day. and quite frankly, I'm sick of fighting. Sick of having to constantly stick up for myself, and for others who are members of FC.
I think that sometimes we forget that there are REAL live people typing these messages/posts. With real live feelings, and real live situations that go beyond our little Flower Chat world.
I want to say thanks to everyone who e-mailed me and also to those who Pm'd me.
And to Ryan. If he closed my account when I asked him to I wouldn't have been able to read all the messages.
Anyway,
Yeah I do get "wordy" but again, that's me.
Don't know if I will be as active as I once was, but if I can ever help anyone, e-mail me or send me a PM.
I just felt I needed to say something since it would be rude not to say anything at all.... since so many sent me nice messages.
peace out.