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Well all next tuesday is my one year anniversary of having gastric bypass surgery...First I want to thank you all for your support over that last year in all of my struggles, wether it be weight, surgery, shop or personal related, I have had many pitfalls and the support given here has been worth its weight in gold...
I am currently holding steady at 240lbs, this is 205 lbs from my highest weight of 445lbs and 120lbs lighter than one year ago...This has not been an easy road but one that I would definately do over again. I am now healthier than I have been in 25 years and finally have gotten to a place that no diet ever got me..I have finally accepted responsibility for what goes in my moouth and know the consequences of my action...I for the first time in my life understand the need for making good decisions for my body and that it is OK to make bad ones when you know that there are consequences for those actions and steps to be taken to make those consequences smaller...I have lost and gained hundreds of lbs on all sorts of diets and never ever got this before, this was my big revelation...I feel like I have finally conquered my inner demon and for the first time ever I have control over it and not the other way around, but the wisdom to know that it can take control right back if I get lax on my end...
My journey is still new and still a very long one...I have many surgeries to consider for body sculpting and decisions on what is best for me and if they need to be done or I want them done because of vanity...This will be a life long battle and I now understand how long that is...but I also understand that if I slip up and make bad choices, those choices are only momentary and I have the power to change them for the better if I choose to and if I want to feel good(this is a very powerful motivator)...
I am a different person today than I was a year ago...not because I look different but because I have taken this time to invest in myself, dig deep and ask the hard questions of why I made the choices I made and what got me to a point that I needed to rearrange my inside to get me out of that situation...I have answered a lot of those questions and in answering those questions have found a new love for me and an understanding of why my friends love me regardless of what I looked like on the outside...I have made myself a worthy entity in my own mind and it is the greatest feeling on Earth!!!!!
I am currently holding steady at 240lbs, this is 205 lbs from my highest weight of 445lbs and 120lbs lighter than one year ago...This has not been an easy road but one that I would definately do over again. I am now healthier than I have been in 25 years and finally have gotten to a place that no diet ever got me..I have finally accepted responsibility for what goes in my moouth and know the consequences of my action...I for the first time in my life understand the need for making good decisions for my body and that it is OK to make bad ones when you know that there are consequences for those actions and steps to be taken to make those consequences smaller...I have lost and gained hundreds of lbs on all sorts of diets and never ever got this before, this was my big revelation...I feel like I have finally conquered my inner demon and for the first time ever I have control over it and not the other way around, but the wisdom to know that it can take control right back if I get lax on my end...
My journey is still new and still a very long one...I have many surgeries to consider for body sculpting and decisions on what is best for me and if they need to be done or I want them done because of vanity...This will be a life long battle and I now understand how long that is...but I also understand that if I slip up and make bad choices, those choices are only momentary and I have the power to change them for the better if I choose to and if I want to feel good(this is a very powerful motivator)...
I am a different person today than I was a year ago...not because I look different but because I have taken this time to invest in myself, dig deep and ask the hard questions of why I made the choices I made and what got me to a point that I needed to rearrange my inside to get me out of that situation...I have answered a lot of those questions and in answering those questions have found a new love for me and an understanding of why my friends love me regardless of what I looked like on the outside...I have made myself a worthy entity in my own mind and it is the greatest feeling on Earth!!!!!