I hope I get a coupla green dots for this.....I don't usually talk publicly about this, but today am very happy and I don't care who knows.
There was a time when I was very nearly dead, and I was sick enough to not care, actually welcoming death because I had no idea how to live. See, I was a child of the 60's who had so much fun back then, but got lost on that path. My life got so horrible and I became pitifully and incomprehensibly demoralized I just wanted to die, but I thought surrender was for weaklings. It's turned out that desperation was one of the greatest gifts I have ever received.
Today I celebrate 15 years of continuous sobriety from all drugs, including alcohol, which has brought me so many gifts, not the least of....
Years spent taking care of my elderly parents and being with both of them when they left the world. What a wonderful payback for the years of worry and misery I had caused in their lives. When my Dad passed - I wanted to put something special in his pocket as a momento of me and I put in my 8 year coin. My Mother has my 14 year one in the pocket of her burial dress.
I have gotten to amend my behaviours thru my thoughts and attitudes. I'm not who I once was. Thank God.
I have more friends than I have ever had in my life.
The love of a beautiful young wife. (see below - ain't they pretty?)
A wonderful darling little 2 year old son, my first child, who woke me up this morning smiling at me. What a gift!
A very successful business where I get to spread joy all day long, which gives me the ability to do anything I can dream of.
The gift of purpose - being able to devote my primary purpose in life to help others with drug problems and be of service to God and my fellow man in a way only a recovering addict can be. I've been in the county jail here virtually every Monday night since 1994, and in a state penitentiary monthly since 1997. I can do something all the counselors in the world can't do - touch people on the emotional level.
Hope and Inspiration and Freedom and Joy in my life. All brought about thru the spiritual principle of surrender. I surrendered and joined the winning side.
Life is Grand! Thanks for listening
JB
Part of the joy in my life:
There was a time when I was very nearly dead, and I was sick enough to not care, actually welcoming death because I had no idea how to live. See, I was a child of the 60's who had so much fun back then, but got lost on that path. My life got so horrible and I became pitifully and incomprehensibly demoralized I just wanted to die, but I thought surrender was for weaklings. It's turned out that desperation was one of the greatest gifts I have ever received.
Today I celebrate 15 years of continuous sobriety from all drugs, including alcohol, which has brought me so many gifts, not the least of....
Years spent taking care of my elderly parents and being with both of them when they left the world. What a wonderful payback for the years of worry and misery I had caused in their lives. When my Dad passed - I wanted to put something special in his pocket as a momento of me and I put in my 8 year coin. My Mother has my 14 year one in the pocket of her burial dress.
I have gotten to amend my behaviours thru my thoughts and attitudes. I'm not who I once was. Thank God.
I have more friends than I have ever had in my life.
The love of a beautiful young wife. (see below - ain't they pretty?)
A wonderful darling little 2 year old son, my first child, who woke me up this morning smiling at me. What a gift!
A very successful business where I get to spread joy all day long, which gives me the ability to do anything I can dream of.
The gift of purpose - being able to devote my primary purpose in life to help others with drug problems and be of service to God and my fellow man in a way only a recovering addict can be. I've been in the county jail here virtually every Monday night since 1994, and in a state penitentiary monthly since 1997. I can do something all the counselors in the world can't do - touch people on the emotional level.
Hope and Inspiration and Freedom and Joy in my life. All brought about thru the spiritual principle of surrender. I surrendered and joined the winning side.
Life is Grand! Thanks for listening
JB
Part of the joy in my life:
