Luc thank you so much for your call today ,, It was so nice of you to take the time to offer to take my trip for me.. just kidding .. it was so very nice of you to offer me your heart felt feelings in this very trying time . Yes i am gonna go as it was booked in july and is non refundable but there really isnt anything i can do right now.. I know the time will come fast enough and then i will do what has to be done. So once again dear friend Thanks For Caring .. in this business we deal with heart ache every day so maybe we really really know what people are going through in tragic times.. Thanks Joanne