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As most of you know, I had laporascopic roux-en-y or gastric bypass surgery on June 30, 2008...It is now almost 8 months ppost surgery and a whole lot has happened in my life...
I started my weight loss journey shortley after buying my shop. My highest weight was 445lbs, it took me the better part of 2 years to lose 50lbs, by behavior modification. In January 08, I started my pre-op condsulting and subsequently lost another 30lbs before having my surgery. At 36 years old, I had uncontrolled diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, high triglycerides, sleep apnea, various breathing problems and a bucket load of aches and pains...
Eight months later I have lost 111 lbs more for a total of 191 lbs. I no longer have diabetes, High blood pressure, high cholesterol, High triglycerides or sleep apnea..My breathing is very good, I no longer get bronchitis, or upper respiritory illnesses like I used to. My aches and pains are far less. I can walk up and down stairs gracefully and normally. I can fiot in most chairs and booths without worry. I can navigate a crowded room without feeling like a bull in a china shop. I once again feel like a petite and femanine girl, something I was robbed of due to the physical look of my exterior and the havoc the hormone imbalance created inside my body. There are so many things I want to do that I have missed out on in the last 20 years of my life...like canoeing, rollerskating, ice skating, skiing, hiking, the list goes on and on...
I am still 80 or so lbs over wieght but for once I feel normal. I feel like a part of society and am treated like a part of society. The changes in how I am treated by strangers is amazing and sad all at the same time...I have not changed inside and the way I get treated now makes me sad for the person I once was that was unaware of how badly I was treated for the way I looked, I always though I was treated that way because people were awful to everyone, now I know they were just awful to me because I was freakishly fat...and that part hurts sometimes..I see people still in their struggle with super morbid obesity and my heart breaks for them on so many levels...It makes me so thankful that I did this for myself regardless of the stigma that having surgery has with some people as the easy way out..
Speaking of easy way out, this by far has not been easy by any means...I still struggle with food choices every day, I struggle with body image, I struggle with emotional eating issues..the easy way out would have been to continue eating without regard and hope that one of the co-morbidities would take me to my death...There is nothing easy about having to watch what you eat every minute of every day, but I am thankful for the strength and knowledge to do it. There is nothing easy about the guilt you feel when it comes to making a bad choice for your body or realizing that you let yourself get 300lbs overweight, but I am thankful for the chance I have been given to correct these issues. There is nothing easy about still being a 445 lb person ina 250lb shell, but I am thankful for the ability to slowly change the person inside with couselling and meetings. although, I never want to completely lose that 445 lb person completely because she makes me have compassion for thouse still in the trenches, I will be glad when I can more control her emotional eating and her bad habits...
An amazing journey this has been and now my life is so different, I am so glad I am still young enough to enjoy the body I now have...
I started my weight loss journey shortley after buying my shop. My highest weight was 445lbs, it took me the better part of 2 years to lose 50lbs, by behavior modification. In January 08, I started my pre-op condsulting and subsequently lost another 30lbs before having my surgery. At 36 years old, I had uncontrolled diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, high triglycerides, sleep apnea, various breathing problems and a bucket load of aches and pains...
Eight months later I have lost 111 lbs more for a total of 191 lbs. I no longer have diabetes, High blood pressure, high cholesterol, High triglycerides or sleep apnea..My breathing is very good, I no longer get bronchitis, or upper respiritory illnesses like I used to. My aches and pains are far less. I can walk up and down stairs gracefully and normally. I can fiot in most chairs and booths without worry. I can navigate a crowded room without feeling like a bull in a china shop. I once again feel like a petite and femanine girl, something I was robbed of due to the physical look of my exterior and the havoc the hormone imbalance created inside my body. There are so many things I want to do that I have missed out on in the last 20 years of my life...like canoeing, rollerskating, ice skating, skiing, hiking, the list goes on and on...
I am still 80 or so lbs over wieght but for once I feel normal. I feel like a part of society and am treated like a part of society. The changes in how I am treated by strangers is amazing and sad all at the same time...I have not changed inside and the way I get treated now makes me sad for the person I once was that was unaware of how badly I was treated for the way I looked, I always though I was treated that way because people were awful to everyone, now I know they were just awful to me because I was freakishly fat...and that part hurts sometimes..I see people still in their struggle with super morbid obesity and my heart breaks for them on so many levels...It makes me so thankful that I did this for myself regardless of the stigma that having surgery has with some people as the easy way out..
Speaking of easy way out, this by far has not been easy by any means...I still struggle with food choices every day, I struggle with body image, I struggle with emotional eating issues..the easy way out would have been to continue eating without regard and hope that one of the co-morbidities would take me to my death...There is nothing easy about having to watch what you eat every minute of every day, but I am thankful for the strength and knowledge to do it. There is nothing easy about the guilt you feel when it comes to making a bad choice for your body or realizing that you let yourself get 300lbs overweight, but I am thankful for the chance I have been given to correct these issues. There is nothing easy about still being a 445 lb person ina 250lb shell, but I am thankful for the ability to slowly change the person inside with couselling and meetings. although, I never want to completely lose that 445 lb person completely because she makes me have compassion for thouse still in the trenches, I will be glad when I can more control her emotional eating and her bad habits...
An amazing journey this has been and now my life is so different, I am so glad I am still young enough to enjoy the body I now have...
